Blog Study

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Gallbladder

So, remember my dumping post?

Yeah, it wasnt dumping. It was a gallbladder attack.

Two weeks after that, I had the same thing happen with McDonalds chicken nuggets. Then, last friday, it happened again, with italian sausage soup.

I realized that my symptoms matched up with a gallbladder attack more than they did with dumping. I made an appointment with my doctor, had an ultrasound the next day. I have "several small mobile stones less than 5mm." Which is good and bad.

Its good because it means I have a high probability of keeping my gallbladder. Actigall is a medication that many WLS patients are on after surgery to prevent gallstones. It can also dissolve already formed gallstones.

Its bad because the ducts that connects the gallbladder to the intestinal tract are about 2-3 mm in size (confirmed by the Ultrasound!). which means the stones are small enough to migrate down and get stuck. So, I have to be careful with the fat content of the foods that I eat to try to prevent another attack.

So, thats my update :) 2 more pounds to 100 pounds lost! :-)

Calories

(cross posted from OH)

So, of course, after ranting about counting calories in my blog, I decided to look at what I ate today.

(Note: I dont normally track my food. I hardly even track my protein. My "diet" plan is to eat the things that my stomach likes, which happens to be meat, and eat mostly good for me things. nothing is off limits, I dont deprive myself, if I want something i'll eat it, and I enjoy everything that I eat. I dont scrutinize everything that goes into my mouth, I would rather be a bit bigger and not be obsessive about my calories/weight.)

For breakfast, I had leftovers from last night, which were spicy chicken and beef things and a tiny bit of pasta.

I got a Chipotle burrito for dinner, because it was free! Half chicken, half beef, black beans, no rice, cheese, and spicy salsa. I tore off any extra tortilla that wasnt holding the food in, and ate about 3/4ths of it over, oh, a 4 hour period.

I'll go home tonight, maybe have an ice cream float

Totals, including my ice cream float?

Calories: 792
Fat: 29
Carbs: 54
Protein: 62

I probably could not have planned it better.

94 pounds down since 12/20

(I would like to add, I didnt plan this. This is how I normally eat. "Oo, that sounds good, and its cheap, lets go! Oh, rice would fill me up and I dont really like it, let me get the good stuff." I dont feel deprived or starving, thanks to my surgery. However, if I had planned this? I probably would not have been satisfied with it. :-)

Post #100

Woohoo! My hundredth post :-)

Posted by fillyjonk on kateharding.net: "I don’t feel the perverse need to count the number of breaths necessary to get my brain enough oxygen, and then reduce them by a third. I don’t mete out how much water I’m allowed, reasoning that getting enough to stay hydrated would be greedy. If the amount I eat is fueling the amount I do, then it’s the amount I need."

Size acceptance groups have this big thing about how diets dont work. And, the part that ive really absorbed from that is that calorie counting is a big contributer to the "diet" mentality.

I didnt have my sleeve so I would be on a "diet." I had my sleeve because it cured my need to eat in excess of what my body needs. My weight was stable at 320 for a year, I didnt gain or lose even when I binged. I do think that your weight set point comes when however you eat "naturally" intersects with however much you burn "naturally." Aka, there are those that need to eat 800 calories a day and work out an hour each day to maintain their weight. However, if they ever ate more than that, or didnt work out that much, they would gain weight back until their calories intersect again.

I would rather not hit my goal weight, and instead stabalize at a point that I can sustain. I dont want to be forced to eat 800 calories a day for the rest of my life to be 160, when I can eat however many calories I eat "naturally," and however much exercise I incorporate into my life. If I know I have to run an hour a day to stay at my weight, what happens when I cant run? Or go a week without running? I gain weight, then feel guilty about not running and the "diet guilt" comes up.

Id rather be fat than deal with the diet guilt. If I get to a point where I start gaining weight, i'll take a look at where I am at that point, and what I could change. Until then, I eat my nice juicy steak and choose not to worry about it. :-)

NSV

I am planning on moving, so I am trying to sell/get rid of my stuff.

I was trying on dresses to confirm that they did not fit before I sold them. On a whim, I tried on my size 16 senior year prom dress. That I wore with a corset to prom.

The dress is too big. WOOHOO!

Now, if my lower body size 20 jeans would catch up with my size 14 top, I would be okay :-)

Updates

I found a Wii Fit! It is the most awesome thing ever! I always got bored with workout tapes, the Wii Fit is something that is motivating for me :-)

My birthday went well, my chili went well, a good time was had by all.

I went tubing on the river for the first time ever. It was nice, but I got impatient. I would rather prefer Schlitterbahn. :-)

Wii

I bought a Wii! The Sports games are kinda fun :-) I am on the lookout for a Wii Fit, they are really hard to find.

Its interesting the way I am reacting to comments. My friends said that this is the first time they have seen me with my natural hair color. Which made me want to go dye my hair. They also say I look smaller than I did last month, which makes me want to eat :-(

I am at the point that my internal picture is probably bigger than where I am. I havent been at this low of a weight since probably shortly after high school, when I didnt eat because I had no money :-) My high school jean size was 18, and im approaching that.

Its a whole new world!